not today.

i say too many things in my life. and now i'll i have to say, i would rather not.

things get better. things get worse. NOTHING IS ABSOLUTE.

condescending you.

i don't approve of your disappointed looks. your "i'm better that you" looks, and your "i'm over you" looks. what ever happened to being friends? i'm sorry that i became one of your dumb guy friends, one that you could put on your list. your list titled TRASH. i didn't mean to offend you.

c'est la vie

let's do it.
let's not.
but we will eventually.
but i wont let it happen this time. besides, it  never ends well.
it's only happened twice.
and ended in us hating each other.
we can make it work. 
but we fight like hell.
i love you.
i love you too.

i mean this in a way that wont make you cry.

twice?

can you just tell me something, anything will do.good or bad, right now you've got me eating out of the palm of your hand. what more could you want?


and as for you, please know i'm praying for you, not to sound condescending, but it has to hurt to lose that much. he will be missed.


B. you go through a lot, i know. people tell you things, i hope that things go well for the rest of the week and that Mr. H. doesn't give you anymore grief.

apology.

Dear Cady, we aren't the best of friends. this i know. i'm so sorry, i was wrong, and i hurt you. and you just defended yourself. it was my fault this i know. please forgive me. or at least say we can be friends again, like when you were away.

*sigh*

stability is a fragile thing, i t can be knocked over easily. but ironically it's sets up everything, so it won't get knocked over. i want stability, with my family, my friends, and with dumb girls! (who aren't really that dumb) but you go through life. all you can do is breathe, lets hope for the best. God please help us!

this works... right?

i think, you have to make it stable, if you want it to be stable. nothing just falls into place. and if it's not stable, knock it down, and make it stable. 

-Emily Garinger

To destroy is always the first step in any creation.

-e. e. cummings

Striving for the best, will bring you the best.

-Jones Soda bottle cap

serve God love me and mend. 

this is not the end.

live unbruised we are friends.

i'm sorry, i'm sorry.

sigh no more, no more.

one foot in sea, and one on shore.

my heart was never pure. 

you know me, you know me

but man is giddy thing.

oh man is a giddy thing. 

love it will not betray dismay or enslave you.

it will set you free. 

be more like the man you were made to be

there is a design an alignment a cry of my heart to see.

the beauty of love as it was made to be

-Mumford and Sons

#2: happiness:)

Alex Eliason-Miller,
got accepted to numerous colleges from around the state, but she turned them down to go to cosmetology school. and i think it's awesome. she is doing what she wants to do. which is more than most people are willing to do. most people are fine with living unhappy lives as long as they are making enough to support them, and their lifestyle. she is doing something that can pay well, and also something she loves and is good at. a good friend of mine, has often said he wouldn't mind marrying his girlfriend, getting a dead  end job, and making music with his band. and that's way more respectable than getting a 9-5 job. i think that as long as you're happy, you're successful.

IT STOPPED

We were such good friends, and then she stopped. I came home today, to find you sitting on my couch. 
I said "hey", you didn't respond at all, you just sat there like a corpse. I tired to get your attention, you just wouldn't listen. Then you got up, packed your things, and walked out the front door. Did i do something?


Because if i did i'm sorry.

CONGRATS!!!

it is with a heavy heart that i say CONGRATULATIONS. i will miss you and your shenanigans, your infectious Laugh, heart warming SMILE, and your way of making EVERYONE feel like they're a part of "The Group", i will miss you. i hope BELGIUM brings you a wonderful life, great friendships, possibly love. if you haven't already found it.  i will always love you like a BRO. and will never drink another VANILLA LATTE.

Love shifts and changes. I don't know if you can be wholeheartedly in love  all of the time.
-Julie Andrews
i kind of agree with this statement. but i don't want too. if Jesus can love us unconditionally why can't we love each other like that?

Dance Dance!

Lets go out. Lets go to a speak-easy.

We should

We should get all fancied up, and dance till morning.

I'll be, Zelda and you my F. Scott.

As long as i'm your only F. Scott i'm happy.

Lets do it. 

And maybe we'll see Mr. Dillinger!

I should hope so, i love you

I love you too.

this is for yesterday

Hope come 

from under the ocean

and cover my burdens

like a cloak

 let all the doors close

  and shut all the windows

  i just want to hear you

  with out all the noise

I know i let you down

But i want to come home now 

i've missed you 

the way that i used to

when i was a child

and you we're my God

but you're so mysterious

the way you keep nearing us

like the sound of the water 

in the dark of the night 

i know i let you down 

but i want to come home now

-Roman Holiday

I AM.

PRO's and CON's

• PRO's

• she's my best friend
• we "love" each other 
• we know each other better than we know ourselves 
• i think we could make it work 
• she's almost everything on my dumb list
• she makes me happy 

• CON's 

• we're best friends
• we "love" each other
• we know each other better than anyone else
•  i am straightedge, she is not
• we have history together