I was thinking how sorry I am. and I guess being sorry isn't enough anymore.
I feel like I've just turned into a empty shell. I'm constantly apologizing for everything-
things I shouldn't even be sorry for. and then I apologize for that.

So I've just stopped talking. I figured that that's the best option for me.

on my mind

i think that it's easy for us to get angry, and for us to force blame on everyone else. Yes there are problems happening, and most likely nothing is going to fix them. but that doesn't mean that we should verbally attack people- or necessarily confront them. tragic things happen. but instead of seeing all the damage and devastation and getting angry- look for a different point of view. see why they acted the way they did. and i know that empathizing with a murderer is unusual- but it's helpful to everyone- at least i think it is. understanding makes a world of difference.

Yeah I know, I suck- or life does.

You know it doesn't really matter.

That's cool.

No- actually what I meat is I know that we aren't friend anymore but I mean it would be wonderful if we could be again. I'm just too indecisive to have any real friendship or relationship.