Monday, July 15, 2013

I went to a wedding, a Christian wedding, they washed each other's feet as a symbol of humility and service- it was pretty cute. But the thing that got me, was their genuine love for each other. But there was something else... It was like a pure and innocent love as well. And that was sweet for me to see. I don't really see that too often, because creeping on other people isn't my thing. If I ever get married, I want it to be a sweet and pure and innocent kind of love, and maybe Jesus needs be involved for a love like that, maybe not. I'm alright with that.

Also their color scheme was nice.

Monday, July 1, 2013

I wish I could show the world it was beautiful.
Not the actual world, though if it did have insecurities, I'd want to fix that too.
I for the longest time thought that I was worthless, because of how I looked/look.
There are too many girls that I know, and I say girls because a lot of them are under 16, that think that they're fat, or ugly, or too tall, or just not good enough in general. And some people just might shrug that off as normal teenage girl thoughts. But it's not something that should happen. People should feel that they have worth, because they themselves are people who have worth. Beauty isn't something that shouldn't be attainable, it just is something that everyone has. And it doesn't define worth- but society tells us that it does.
And it's not just with women, or young girls- it's a problem with men, and young boys too. we were just socialized to ignore it, or fix it, actually- bury it. I don't know... When I was a sophomore I started cutting myself because I never thought that I would be good enough, you know? Because I wasn't studdly enough.
I understand embracing your body, but using words like "fat" and "ugly" aren't the way to do it.
I don't know, I wish that I could fix this problem. Not just with the world, but also with me.
We all deserve to be healthy and happy.