it's all my fault.

i know that i'm an asshole.
i know that i tried replacing you.
i know that you deserve to be happy.
but i'm not good at that.

i know that you aren't happy.
i know i could fix that.
i know that i spent too much time with her.
and i know that i kind of abandoned you. and everyone.
i miss you.

i just wish i could get everyone together, and we could all listen to mewithouYou and drink coffee or tea. but that's not going to happen.  i fucked everything up with people because i don't like getting close. even being friends i get awkward. and i'm sorry.