i don't know why or what.

oh come on now you give yourself too much credit, he was young, and that's all you need to get your hopes dashed, is be young. and everyone starts out young. so everyone gets their hopes dashed.

blonde hair turned, still ocean blue eyes. 

i feel pathetic. and so small. 

i also think that i don't ever want to date because i romanticize the people themselves and not the relationships. Tiffany, Parker, Haley, i should have realized this. and i still feel like i have this need, when i wake up from dreams. i'm not happy. i miss Tiffany.