i'm not lying when i say i've become a cynic. it's not your fault though.

"i'm happy for you"
"why?"
"because you've wanted it for so long, and now... i think that people should get what they want. until they don't want it anymore."

i mean i felt pathetic, has my wanting been pining? have i really been that desperate?
i don't know...
i really don't, not anymore.