this is my last one for awhile

he might die. it's sad, and horrible to think about. i will be there for you, anyway i can which i imagine is limited. i'm afraid that if something does happen, it will cause things to spiral. like cause other things to happen. drastic things. i' also afraid you'll push everyone away, your family, and your friends. (because yes you do have a shit ton of people who are here for you.)  i don't want any more shit to go down because lets face it, so much has happened to you in the past however long. there needs to be an upside sometime. at least i hope.

 i love you. it might not seem like much, but i'm here for you.