you need to question everything. question your life, and your love, your beliefs, your very being. are you happy? is this life you're living what you thought it was "supposed to be"? or is it not what you wanted? and if it's not change it. you might have to hurt people. and might have to humble yourself, and say that you were wrong. make apologies. mend things. it's going to be hard though. but it's worth it.