given the chance i would never do that ever again. i mean, there is a part of me that wants to give up this belief that i have, and just do those things.  but i can't i guess you could call it morals, or my conscious. but i can't actually. am i missing out on something in life if i don't? i can't begin to explain this. but i don't want to i think that maybe it had something to do with what Stanczyk said, and the way he said it. he was so proud. it was honorable, but we laughed at him... and thought he was a loser. but he stands in his beliefs. it was beautiful.
it's a moral dilemma. but it's not because i'm a christian, it's actually just my family. things didn't work out for them.